When your passion is knitting it only makes sense that you will inevitably knit items to gift to your family and friends. There is so much love that can be knit into an item or an article of clothing. I've always been a 'gifter'. When I knit something most times it ends up being gifted. I actually have to make myself knit for me.
So when you spend all the time and energy knitting something truly wonderful it really feels horrible when the item seems to be unappreciated. I'm sure you've all experienced this at one time or another. I've even given people a second chance in this. Maybe the first item really wasn't special, and then the self doubt comes in - aren't I a good enough knitter to gift items? And on and on it goes.
This past year I knit a truly delightful dress for a niece of ours and I was truly disappointed that I never even received a picture of her wearing it, or even comments on how it fit. I ordered the yarn from the U.S. and put a lot of work into the item. It was quite a popular item on Ravelry so it's not an outdated - ugly frock from the 70's. As far as I know, the dress has never even been tried on.
Yesterday I was kind of down on myself. I had decided to knit the Wool Peddler Shawl in Malabrigo Sock yarn in Impressionist Sky. This is not cheap yarn, by any means. After having another look at the pattern I realized I'd need yet another skein. The practical me - the 'I don't need to knit for me' - me, wanted to return the yarn and go and buy some cheap acrylic and just 'make do'.
Then I thought about all the knitting I've done over the years and how much was gifted, some appreciated and some not. Here I have the opportunity to knit myself a gorgeous shawl, something I'll have for my lifetime and I'm actually second guessing myself. Really, if I can order yarn from the US and knit for someone who will not appreciate it, surely I can buy one extra skein and have my own beautiful shawl that I will truly enjoy for many years!